Tuesday, September 04, 2012
I just want to say.. That I'm sorry I didn't give you my best.. You deserve better..
it got me home
9:23 pm
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Dear Heavenly Father,
After returning to your side again, all you have done for me, is to make my life a better one. Everything that happened, everyone that I met, I truly felt you work in my life. I am convinced that Priscilla just played the role of bringing me to you. Although it may sound harsh, but she's the best thing that happened to me, not because of the wonderful memories we had together, but because of the hurt that she brought, that changed me and ultimately brought me back to you. Our paths may never cross again, and I wish her all the best in whatever she does from here on now. =)
Dear Lord, a million thanks can't describe how indebted I feel towards you. All my life, I've been struggling with the issue of love, or what I thought is love. It made my life miserable, how hard I tried to force things that were never meant to be. It's only after I made up my mind to let You lead me and guide me, that I truly feel that I'm able to lead a self-fulfilling life. Never have I been alone without feeling lonely, and never have I appreciated the small things in life. You truly opened up my eyes, to see how much more the world has to offer. I've been trapped in this illusion created by the media and our generation, that love transcends everything. But they're wrong, because Lord, only Your love transcends everything.
Dear Lord, you brought a wonderful girl into my life. You showed me that there are still nice and sweet girls in this twisted world after all. I don't know if it's an appropriate time or inappropriate time that we met now, but she did help me get through this ordeal that I myself thought would take at least a year. I am really thankful to You Lord, for bringing her into my life. She is also healing from a past relationship, so Lord I pray to you, please give her strength and courage, please pull her out of her misery like how you allowed her to pull me out from mine.
Once again, thank you Lord for everything. =)
it got me home
11:50 pm
Monday, June 11, 2012
Dear God.. I am dedicating this post to you.. Because when I pray.. Sometimes I'm not able to organise my thoughts properly..
In all the 4 years that I was in secondary school.. I never really wanted to get to know You.. I saw my sister having accepted You.. Went on to quarrel with my parents.. And I was thinking.. Why would You allow such a thing to happen..? Isn't Christianity supposed to bond a family together..? I refused to open my heart to You.. I didn't want to strain my relationship with my family anymore..
At that time.. I was with Jingying.. After we broke up.. She told me that she didn't believe in You because I wasn't a Christian.. I didn't know what to make of it at that time.. And till now I still don't.. But it left a deep impression in me.. All the way till now..
Then when I started chasing Priscilla.. Knowing her family is a Christian family.. I felt a need to get to know You better.. I started going to Good Shepherd.. And I really enjoyed myself with the sharing during service.. I thought I felt what was your presence.. And eventually I accepted You into my life.. I don't really recall what happened.. Why I turned my back on you.. Why I eventually stopped going to church..
The second time me and Pris got together.. We totally cast you aside.. I think that's the main reason why there were so many problems with us.. I think you really understood me.. That my character was so stubborn.. That you had to do something drastic for me to change.. All this time.. I thought I was a tough guy.. But this incident showed me how soft I really am.. I didn't know I could cry in front of anyone at anytime.. You touched me so deep during Saturday service.. Thinking back about it makes me shed tears right now.. How I turned my back on You.. How I shut You out from my life.. How I neglected Pris' need for a spiritual partner.. How I didn't want to acknowledge Your presence in our relationship.. And yet.. You still accepted me back as one of your own when I came crying out to you.. Most importantly.. You showed me that there wasn't a need to put on a tough front.. That You will accept me for who I am.. Your love for me showed me how insignificant my love for Priscilla is.. And if it hurts me this bad.. I didn't know how hurt You must have felt when I walked away from You..
I will follow You sincerely.. You changed my life from this incident.. And I thank You Lord..
it got me home
10:53 am
Monday, February 02, 2009
Because I just couldn't give you up.. But I'll try.. And it hurts.. A damn lot..
it got me home
10:14 pm
Saturday, January 31, 2009
I really miss her...
it got me home
2:48 pm
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Haha this was taken using my new phone! The super laggy w910i.. Grr..
Oh wells.. Exams are this week! So that's why I haven't been blogging much lately.. And I have another blog that's more important to take care of.. XD
Looking forward to sports class' chalet next week! x) MAHJONG & HALO ARRRR~~~ =D
it got me home
9:50 pm
Monday, November 05, 2007
Sorry for all the emo posts fellas.. Think most of you would have known what happened.. And for all those who were there for me.. I sincerely thank you all from the bottom of my heart.. =)
Now.. I've found new motivations in life.. I can't say they're exactly new.. Firstly coz she's still my motivation.. And secondly coz.. The "new" ones have already been there for quite some time now.. Only that I didn't notice..?
Many people have fallen ill because of exams.. Do take care alright..? =)
How I wish I'm ill too..
it got me home
10:41 pm
